Whats meant to be will be.

This is my mom
Ok, many people know this about me except the people who read this but it has always been a dream of mine to have a daughter. When I found out that I was having a second boy I was devistated. I used to cry when anyone would make a comment about me not having a little girl, especially when my husband would say that he was glad that we didnt have one. Latley, since I've been a single mom for the last three months, I have realized that I should be thankful for what I have and love the boys that I was meant to have. But....on my myspace, there are 4 of my friends that are pregnant and 3 of them are having girls. I mean, come on. Whats my problem? I will always wonder why I wasnt given the chance to have the bond of a mother and a daughter. I mean a part of me feels like I'm missing out on something. I know that I would have to put up with the sassiness, the periods, the sex talks, the where does the tampon go conversation, the mom I'm pregnant conversation and the I got my heartbroken breakdown of tears. I know that there would be nights where I would worry if she was out with the right people, if anyone was taking advantage of her, if she hated me for not letting her dress the way all the other girls dress these days. I know there would come a time where she wouldnt need me anymore and there may even be the time when I realize that she might be more of a daddys girl. For all the reasons that I can come up for not having a daughter, in my heart there are more reasons to have one. I can dream of having a baby girl, that bond, but will it ever happen for me? The answer, probably not!! So, the moral of my complaint is: For those of you who do have a daughter, embrace every second with her and remember that the bond that you have, either now or later is something that not everyone can say that they experienced in their lifetime. Be happy for her when she says daddy first, know that she doesnt hate you when you ground her for sneaking out, cry when she cries because some stupid boy broke her heart, and give her that shoulder that she needs. When she's 19 and wants to get married to a boy you havent met, support her, when she has her first baby, be there, no matter what. Remember that daughters, if they know their mothers love them, always need their mother!! I know because I'm 26 and I still need my mom. I call her when I need to cry, I call her when I have good news, I call when I need to vent. I remember her smell, I can hear her voice in my head and I know exctly what she would say if she really knew how I was as a teenager......UN FUCKING BELIEVABLE. I love my mom and am very thankful that she had a daughter.